Category Archives: Thoughts

回到过去

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心血来潮就把周董的这首歌名拉过来了,并不是想回到过去把某人抱在怀里,这种鸟事我还好没后悔过。

刚刚因为学校的原因写了几首诗,分别关于童年,青年和成年。稀稀拉拉的搜刮大脑词量写得头昏眼花的,后来写到成年的时候突然有点心酸,感觉怎麽模模糊糊的下个雨牵个手拉个屎时间都稀里哗啦的过了,头疼的是一时还想不起来是怎麽就这麽快就过了。几年前跟自己下了个誓言,誓言个鬼,哪这麽严重。就是跟自己下了个决心,过生日长老了不要紧,关键就是那一年一定要过得值,到过生日的时候就无悔。去年还行,成就还是比较多的。过了个没蛋糕的24岁生日,照样开心,照个相笑得像个哈巴。今年就有点,唉怎麽说呢,不知道是不是觉得25这个数字有点太大了,再往后都快30了,还是有点不开心的。再想想我的那些小愿望,到处旅游,一份有保障的好工作,好朋友,好同事,好老公,不要孩子,养两只哈士奇,在美国本土洛杉矶或者西雅图或者迈阿密有栋小房子,时不时开车去别的州玩,父母姐虽然不住在同一房子里但是都在身边,几张信用卡但是不欠多少费,。感觉这些就差不多了。最烦的就是老得头发花白,门牙掉了吃不了肉,走路慢得像龟爬的时候,还有一大堆没实现的愿望。

其实不能想多了,想多就心烦,心烦了就一个人闷着哭,然后长一大堆郁闷痘。一件一件的来吧,努力。

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指望。

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“不想一辈子做同一件事。”

这是鱼宝昨晚跟我说的一句话,当然是用的英文。

鱼宝弄来弄去,从修车到抽血,专业前前后后一共换了五次,然后近期又决定想学游戏发展。其实根本就不用他跟我搬大道理,这种事情我从一开始就决定好了。我就那一条命,还不知道能持续多久,怎麽可能每天从被子里爬出来,刷牙洗脸化一大脸的妆,就是为了做重复又重复的同一件事情?

高中时候有个女同学,曾经跟我说过她妈妈一辈子就做了一件工作,在Macy‘s里面卖鞋,一小时赚9块2毛5,做了25年。那女同学跟我当时是好朋友,我并没有多说什么。其实心里觉着可笑透了。你说一个人要多么的没指望,没上进,没对未来的打算,才会在一份一点前途都没有的工作上浪费这麽多的宝贝时间?现在她妈是什麽都没做了,就在家天天看电视吃安眠药,指望着老公养着她剩下的几十年。

并不说我对这种态度有抵触的思想,那倒不是。偶尔把自己跟别人的心理比较比较,才能更仔细的发掘自己对人生到底是个什麽态度。我在目前的酒店上班刚刚过了一年,虽然当时的确觉得是我想做的事情,还是改变不了已经有些厌倦的事实。以后肯定是倾向与搬家的,换个不一样的环境感受一下体验一下。活到老,学到老。世界在更新,我们也需要同步并行,不能老在同样的位置毫无进展,那还不如就窝在床上别起来了!多出门,多交些朋友,偶尔用用Rosetta Stone学习新语言,偶尔用Groupon在网上上个没学过的课,有时间赚够了钱就去旅个游见见世面,学习其他国家的文化,钱都他妈存着有什麽用,让你孩子自己存钱去。是自己的命就要对自己负责。

Peace out.

beep…beep…boop…

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Better late than never…

I got plenty people ask me where do I hid my stuff. Mostly because I never really post any Facebook status, upload any pictures of my food, or make up any random twits about my mood of the day. While people think I might be super busy and bury my face in a book 24/7, I’m not. I guess I’m just lazy as fuck. Even though I have wechat, weibo, baidu space, instagram and so many other shits I barely use, I’m starting a new one today and hoping this will stick…o boy…(I need a Emoji here, damnit).

So today fish and I are bored. I was at the library and he was at work waiting for some fat aunties to tumble outta meeting room. Couldn’t talk to him on the phone so we were taking advantages of those free texts like crazy. Then I thought of a game and we start sending each other made-up Emojis and the other person had to guess the movie title. Kinda like charade but with Emojis. So fish sent one like🙇🐅👥🐉, and it was Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. Then i sent one like👙🎉🌊🏊🐟🐟🐟🐟🐟. And it was Piranha 3D. Ya know, the spring break, bikini, tities and cannibal fish movie. Good game to keep you dying from boredom if you were ever in our situation.

Other than that, nothing much going on for me on da island of Oahu, except it has been ridiculously hot and mudgy. Product of global warming i dont fucking know…but it has been the hottest summer ever! Everyday theres a dark cloud hanging over my head doing nothing but make thunder noises. Taking the shit stall and not making shit at all. Fucking weather sucks.

So ya nothing else to write about and hopefully this is not the only shit post im leaving up here.

Trip to Kona, Big Island

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C360_2015-06-11-20-25-20-907So ya…me and fish fucking went to Kona for four nights and three days. A little getaway for us both. It was the first time we travel together. And we do plan to get further and further each time we get away. Though I don’t count it much as travel as crawling overseas to another fucking island that looked just like ours one, that’s exactly how it was.

C360_2015-06-14-09-37-30-267We stayed at Royal Kona Resort, which located at the tourist trap area in Kona side of the island. Kinda like our Waikiki. The whole street is filled with restaurants and bars. Basically places for you to go eat and get wasted. We had an ocean front room facing out to the sea. It was quite beautiful actually. We sat on the balcony and ate breakfast almost everyday we were here.

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The second day we were there, we went on a whole island tour with Roberts Hawaii tour bus. The whole tour was about 11 hours long. By the time we got home we were knocked out and slept until it was time to go to sleep again.

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The third day we rented noisy mopeds and riding them all over town. Plenty cars got stuck behind us wanted to run us over. Don’t blame them, those things are slow and loud as fuck. We rode to a snorkeling place in Kona. Took us about 30 mins to ride there. The snorkeling was great. Turtles everywhere, though didn’t catch a picture of them. We can always get a picture of the turtles in Oahu, they looked exactly the same anyhow.

The fourth day we didn’t have much time before our flight. So we just returned the mopeds and packed our asses up. And waited for the shuttle to take us back to the airport, where we waited a little more. Even after we got home, it felt like we never left. The island looked alike after all.

Oh wells, next time it’s gonna be less boring than this shit.